I love my husband. That seems like such a simple statement, but it holds so much meaning to me. I love him more than I ever thought I could love another person. Saying he completes me sounds so cheesy, but its so true. He is my best friend. I never thought I would settle down and stay in love with the same person for my whole life, but Jeremy found his way into my heart somehow and changed all of that for me. I love him more than I love myself. I cant explain this love, but I have seen others who are incapable of loving another person this deeply.
I am so excited to become a mom. To bring a life into this world and teach him how to love others. To run errands for him, have endless piles of laundry, my kitchen sink filled with dishes. I AM excited for all that. I want to become a mom and live that lifestyle. I am so excited to love this little baby and put him before myself. I want to give him all the love in the world. Some people have made it very clear of their perception of motherhood, and from their point of view motherhood is bleak and boring and redundant. But that's ok to me. Even if that were to hold true, I lose sleep at night caused by the excitement that overwhelms my heart knowing soon that will be my life.
I like being careful with my money. I am ok with wearing the same pair of shoes everyday, or only having 3 pairs of jeans that aren't name brand. In fact, I don't even know any of the name brand jeans, nor would I ever care to spend 100+ dollars on clothing. I'm ok with the fact that my money goes towards groceries and diapers and rent. Knowing I am responsible makes me feel better as a person.
I like being nice to people. I feel so icky if I ever make a person feel less of themself. That should never be my goal. I want to make people love themself they way they should. I cant stand it when a person tells me something I did was dumb, or a choice I made was dumb. I make a promise to myself to never purposely make a person feel dumb.
I want to be a good church go-er. I want that closeness with Heavenly Father. I WANT so badly, more than anything in this whole world, to be sealed to my husband and my sweet new baby. I always knew this would be important to me, but I never knew the feeling in my heart would be so strong. The longing to know I will be with them forever is so strong. Some people may have given up on having forever with a person they love, but I refuse to give that up.