...names...

So....we are having a baby boy! And I am so unbelievably excited. Naming him has not been the easiest process. Jeremy is a very special kind of person and that means that he cant like just any normal name. Oh no that would have been too easy for him to do.
Before we knew what we are having the name game was not a fun thing for us to play. We could talk about girl names like it was nothing and we easily agreed on a name for a potential daughter. BUT when the boy name topic came up tempers flared. We could not agree on even one name. We would get in screaming door slamming fights over this!! Finally we agreed to not even talk about it until we knew. But the damage had been done, at least I thought. I was starting to dread finding out if it was a boy. I knew the long road that would be ahead of us if it happened to be a boy. I almost had convinced myself that Heavenly Father wouldn't make me go through that. Ha ha. That was a bit dramatic of me to think.
Lets maybe take a minute to discuss the ABNORMAL names that Jeremy was adamant on naming our son :].
1. Dean
2. Samuel
3. Jensen
4. Jarod
5. Titan
6. Leonidas
Now, yes the first 4 names SEEM like they are normal enough and there shouldn't be anything to complain about. Which, is true, HOWEVER!!, the only reason Jeremy even likes those first 4 names is because they are characters on his favorite show Supernatural. Dean is a character and Jensen is his name in real life. Samuel is Deans brother on the show and Jarod is Sam's real name. It would seem that hes a slight bit obsessed.
Titan was my fault. My friend Whitney and I were making fun of dumb names people choose and Titan was mentioned so I told Jeremy thinking he would make fun of the name with me. Big mistake. He loved it. And Leonidas! AH what do you even say to a name like that?! He got it off the movie 300 and he said any kid named Leonidas is bound to be the coolest kid at school. He was dead serious about it too. He researched it, made me watch the movie with him and everything. So needless to say, I was dreading the thought of having a boy and having to name him Leonidas!!
BUT, thank goodness, we were able to agree on a name. We are going to name our sweet little guy Kouper Dean. I know everyone has their opinion on the way we are spelling his name, but I don't care what they think :]
We are so excited for him to get his little active body here!!

...verdict is in...

Today Jeremy and I had the big ultrasound today! The one that decides everything!!!

Our appointment wasn't until in the afternoon, so I had to wait all day until it was time to go! They also told me to have a full bladder, and let me tell you that was very not fun and very very uncomfortable! It was soooo cool to be able to finally see our baby and see the nose and the feet and the arms and the hands. The heart pumping was the first thing we saw and that's when the tears started to come. I knew it would happen. I knew I would cry. This baby has made me quite emotional so today of course was no different. Then when she got to the legs, that's when we knew...

Hes definitely a boy!! And I am soooooo in love with him already!!!! Hes so adorable!! It was so cue to see Jeremy's reaction to little mister. I don't think I have ever seen Jeremy smile so big and for so long. He jumped out of his seat when the ultrasound tech told us. It was so cute!!

...so in love...

I talked to one of my friends last night from California, and he told me him and his wife are getting a divorce. It broke my heart. It also got me thinking....

I am married to the love of my life. My very best friend. I would DIE if Jeremy decided he didn't love me anymore. He means everything to me. He is the goofiest person I know, and he makes me laugh all the time. He says it just to make me smile. So I have found a song that says exactly how I feel about him.

SMILE BY UNKLE KRACKER

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments when my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
Sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head
Spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
Buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of
bed sing like bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed
sing like bird
Dizzy in my head
spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold
buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile
Ohh you make me smile

...hospital trip?!...

So on Tuesday I woke up with theeeee worst chest pains I think I have ever felt in my life. The pain started shooting down my left arm and I started to panic. Luckily Jeremy was home with me, so he called my baby doctor and some other nurses, and everyone said it's probably nothing, BUT it could be blood clots (since I guess they are super common during pregnancy) so I needed to go to the hospital. I was so scared. They hooked me up to a ton of little monitors so they could monitor me and the baby's heartbeat. They ran some blood tests first to see if they could rule out blood clots and they also did a chest x ray, which scared me way bad. I had to sign a consent form saying they could do the x ray even though I am pregnant. So now they have me all freaked out about anything bad happening to the baby from the x rays. WELL...the blood tests came back inconclusive, sooo they had to do a cat scan on me...which means another consent form and more dangers to the baby. In the meantime they hooked me up to a nexium IV for heartburn. I had to wait a half hour for all the test results to come back. And after all that, the doctor comes in and says it must be nothing big and sends me home!!! I'm glad it wasn't anything dangerous or scary, but Ive been really upset that I had to do all those tests that are dangerous to my baby. When we got home Jeremy said a prayer for me to help calm me down and he said everything I needed to hear. So now I feel a little more relaxed about it.

And hear is a picture of my belly at 16 weeks!! It's slowly starting to grow!!! Hopefully we will find out the gender of the baby BEFORE thanksgiving!!!!

...so lucky...

Pregnancy has made me quite an unpleasant person. I am soooo lucky to have Jeremy by my side. I know I get mean and I throw some pretty ridiculous tantrums, and he never lashes out at me or is mean. Instead, he hugs me or tickles my back or rubs my feet. Eating has become the biggest struggle with this whole experience. Everyday Jeremy has to help me figure out what to eat and it's NEVER easy. Everyday he names off everything we have in the kitchen. Everything he could make me. All the restaurants that are in the area. He tries so hard to help me feel comfortable. I think sometimes I take him for granted and I am going to make it a goal to be more pleasant to him, even if it's the hardest thing to do. I love him a lot and I think I am so lucky to have him here by my side so I don't have to go through this whole thing by myself.

...updates...

I am terrible at this blogging stuff, but I am going to make it a goal to do better. I really don't have much to update, except, I'M PREGNANT! Ha who would have ever thought this would come. Ive been begging Jeremy to have a baby for awhile and finally one day he said I think its time. I was so excited and scared and nervous all at the same time. We got pregnant pretty quickly which was really exciting.
I was in California visiting my family when I found out. I thought there was no way that it had happened that quickly, but my mom said all my symptoms seemed to point to a baby. So she bought me a test and sure enough! I wanted to wait to tell Jeremy in person, but I was just too excited I called him and told him over the phone. I still wish I would've seen his reaction, but I definitely could hear the shock in his voice.
We are due in April 2011 and we are so excited. It still feels so unreal. This will be the first grand baby for my parents and barely the second for Jeremy's. Its a real exciting time and we just cant wait.