...the overdue post...

It may or may not be a coincidence that I have not updated our blog for over 6 months. So instead of filling everyone in, I'm just going to jump right into the here and now :]

Jeremy and I have a very busy little guy. He is our pride and joy. Parker Dean is now 9 months old!!!! Where the HECK has all the time gone!! I swear yesterday we were just bringing him home from the hospital!! Here is an update on our little guy...he has 6 teeth. He crawls everywhere, in the blink of an eye. He wants to walk so so so bad. He can stand on his own and get to standing all on his own as well. He loves to say mama. (I'm not quite sure he's actually calling me mama, but he does love to say it when reaching for me). He loves his aunt Sierra. LOVES her. He loves fruit. Baby food fruit or real fruit. The only veggies he will eat are sweet potatoes and corn. He is such a flirt. He will literally bat his eyelashes at strangers and smile a shy smile. Gets their attention every time. He loves his toys, although he has a very short attention span for them, he gets bored soo quick! He is the only baby I have ever seen get sick and still be too busy to actually be sick. He never lets it get him down! Crazy guy :] We love him so much. Words will never express how proud we are of him.

We now live in Farmington, New Mexico. Don't ask why, that's a topic I'll never touch.

We are living with Jeremy's grandma. This last year she has gotten more sick and Jeremy is helping take care of her. She holds a very special place in his heart. Jeremy's sister Sierra lives here with us. We have 2 dogs, Oscar and Cortez. They are the sweetest little puppies! Parker loves them lots. I miss Utah more than I will ever be able to express with a dry eye. Farmington isn't the worst place to live, it's just not home to me.

...best friends...

These two are the best of friends and its so cute to see. Parker knows who Jeremy is and watching him stare and smile at Jeremy is the sweetest thing :]

...being a mom...

We all have our own opinions on what being a mom means, but fortunately for the past 7 weeks, I have learned for myself what it means to be a mom.

Being a mom means...

putting yourself last

opening your heart completely

crying more than you ever knew you could

EVERYTHING makes you cry

learning what innocence looks like

there is ALWAYS laundry to be done

MY baby will always be the cutest baby around

NOTHING my baby does can gross me out

I can sleep later

nothing can make your heart melt the way a child's smile does

you really can never take too many pictures

you finally know what it feels like to be complete

Being Parker's mom is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I was sitting there watching him sleep the other, and I wondered to myself what did I do with myself before he was around. I don't remember life without him, and NEVER do I want to know a life without him again. I ask myself everyday what did I do in my life to deserve something so perfect. I am so thankful God has blessed me with the opportunity to be this little guys mom.

...true joy...

i have been blessed with theee most adorable, happy, loving little guy. he amazes me everyday with his big smiles as he looks right at me. nothing could make me happier than him smiling at me. so quickly he has become my very best friend.

...stay this little...

Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up

...worth 1000 words...

Seriously this is my favorite picture. I love this little boy so much.

...heaven is for me...

holding a baby of one day,
tell us what heavens like we start to say.
he blinks and blinks,
we all just wonder what he thinks;
this world he thinks is just so new
but it seems the same to me and you

holding a baby of one day,
he starts to cry and we start to say,
soon it wont be like this
treasure all of this.
he's an angel everyone gleams
he's my angel mama beams

holding a baby of one day,
the nurse comes in and takes him away.
he's kinda sick the nurses say,
but in a little he'll be okay.
just stay here
pretty soon it'll all be clear.

holding a baby of one day,
he's doing better and now can stay.
he closes his eyes and starts to sleep,
mama's happy he's her's to keep.
very soon he'll be home,
and soon they'll be on their own.

holding her baby of one day,
mama starts to smile and begins to say,
with him i think i see
what heaven is for me
very soon he wont be so small
but for now i'll cherish it all

Halley-Samantha Arntz